>>516920179I'm not entirely sure myself, but I think it's because I've been developing my game and my universe longer than I've known Skullgirls existed and I've unfortunately let them occupy a large portion of my mind.
Being isolated for years trying to figure out how to make GM myself since I'm only one guy and I've had a had time trying to get others to give a shit without me paying them. I initially hated SG but I softened up to it over time and I even started to decide there were things I liked about it. But then I realized that both the community and devs are histrionic narcissists and some of the worst treatment I've ever received from other humans were from them, and I see how passionately autistic their fans are and it just makes me grind my teeth. I AM jealous. I want that for my game. But I don't have it and I'm being told I'm too old now.
The SG devs allowed to keep failing and getting back up and keep getting millions of dollars to keep their shitty game alive and I don't have anything to my name after looking at so many different avenues to make GM for so long and I'm finally starting to make progress only to feel my age, and completely alone, it's wearing on me. I'm trying to stay positive but the anger and dejection is intense sometimes. The abuse from the SG community, the bullshit nontroversy about me trying to commission art from a 16 year old, the fact that I got treated like dirt after my genuine attempts to try and be nice, it's all so frustrating. I may be awkward sure but I am not a fucking pedo god damn it. I'M NOT. I thought I had a way forward with my game since a publisher actually did interest in it, but I had a falling out with him last year after his terms became increasingly unreasonable and he said some unkind things, and I became lost in the woods again. But regardless I stay devoted to GM hoping I will finally see the light at the end of the tunnel one of these days.
